The Alpha King’s Mistake by BlackFlame
Chapter 88 Unending Trouble
Harper Alizah Grace’s POV
A tear escaped from eyes as I realized how much fool I am. Did I saw it right or it was just another illusion? My hands were trembling, unable to do a single move or say anything. I’m beyond sad, angry and so lost. I… I just couldn’t accept what happened now. This is much worst than what happened five years ago.
Getting the courage to do something, I teleported back to the venue without seeing by anyone. I should stay, I choose to stay even if it’s hurting me. I still wanted to his explanation though, if it is true or not. I took a d*eep breath to calm down myself, I won’t calm down, they might feel my power. I’m having a h*ard time to suppress it now, but I can still manage. I won’t let my emotion ruin all.
“Permission to speak, Alizah?” I heard my demon, Venice asked me.
“Go ahead.” I replied lifelessly.
“What you should do now? Will you still believe his explanation?” I don’t know, I really don’t know. It’s h*ard for me to trust now, after what I heard and seen.
“I guess, you don’t know. Why don’t you just leave now? If you’ll stay here, you’ll just get hurt.” She continued. I closed my eyes, I’m aware with that but no, I won’t leave.
“I’m not a coward, I think there something wrong here.” I told her.
“I feel that too,” Wendy agreed. Wait, why Reenah wasn’t talking?
“She’s asleep, she broken after seeing them k*issed.” Just like what I thought. Okay let her sleep for the mean time.
“Have anything else to say? I’m closing the link,” I asked them.
“Nothing else, we don’t want to upset you even more.” Wendy answered. Aright then, I closed the link. I took a d*eep breath and looked where Amanda located at. I spotted her, playing with her son. I still have another reason to stay here.
I started walking towards their direction, pretending as if everything were just alright. I plastered a smile and tapped Amanda’s back. She was a little shock at my sudden appearance.
“Hey, Matthew.” I greeted happily her son.
“Aunty!” He exclaimed and run towards me to give me a hug. I welcome him with wide hand, “You’re so handsome tonight, little one.” I complimented him and chuckled. He smiled widely and hugged me so tight.
“You look so beautiful too, aunt!” he replied energetically which causes me to giggle.
“Enjoying the night?” I asked him as I pulled away from the hug. He nodded repeatedly, “Yes, aunt. This night is very, very joyful!” He answered. I happy to hear that.
“Alright little one, can I borrow you mom for the mean time?” I asked him. He nodded, “Sure aunt, but give her back to us.” Haha, so cute. I nodded and tapped his head.
“I will,” I replied. He went to his mother and say what I said. She looked at me, I nodded, she nodded back as well.
“Go to your dad over there, we’ll be back later.” Amanda instructed her son. Matthew attentively nodded and run towards his dad who’s been waiting for him. Maybe Amanda mind linked him.
“You wanted to talk to me?” Amanda asked me as she approached me.
“Yeah, let’s go outside.” I said and gave him a meaningful look.
“Is there something wrong?” she asked me worriedly when she noticed my expression changed. Probably, a big one.
“You will know.” She nodded and followed me outside. We are just quiet while walking in the hallway, I don’t want anyone to eavesdrop our conversation.
“Are you really just fine, Harp?” She asked me again. I shook my head and took above.
“No, I’m not. I’m so lost and upset now, Am.” I admitted. She quickly come closer to me, “What? Why? What happened?” I bit my inner lip to suppress my tears.
“I’m broken, Am. I expected too much. The old sayings were right, expectation will just lead to disappointment.” She’s the only person I can share about this matter. She tapped my back and tried to comfort me.
“I don’t understand, what happened?” I looked at her.
“I met a girl named Keriza Radwell, she’s kind of some important person both to the kingdom and him.” I started. She didn’t say anything, she just let me continue what I’m going to say.
“I heard some things from her that I admitted slightly hurt me. As I’m talking to her, I realized, she and him had something in the past.” I smiled sadly and closed my eyes.
“Then… I met her father. Showing what is the truth to me, realizing how dumb I am,” I looked at her again. “What did he say to you?” she asked me, curiosity and worry was visible in eyes and voice.
“He said I’m not worth it for the throne and to him because I’m just a human,” I answered. She suddenly stands up from her seat.
“WHAT?! That absurd!” she exclaimed. I know, I know.
“Calm down, Am.” I hushed her. She sat down again and hold my hand.
“They were looking so down to you, why don’t you just show your true identity. They will eat their own words when the moment they will know the truth.” I shook my head.
“No, that won’t help. Let them think anything about me, I won’t give any damn. And that’s not what I hurt me the most Am,” I admitted. She looked at me in the eyes.
“Keriza’s father was the head council. He wanted her daughter to be the king’s queen. Keriza and my mate had something in the past. I saw in the illusion that he just searched for me to keep the throne. And he just pretended that he loved me to manipulate me. But the most painful part of it was, I was afraid that everything I mentioned was true after witnessing them having an intimate moment.” I summarized. She gasped after hearing that. I know she realized what I mean.
“Don’t tell me…” I nodded my head.
“Yes, I saw them k*issed.” I confirmed. She was speechless like I was a moment ago. She covered her mouth and eyed me. This time I couldn’t help but to cry, this is really hurting me, a big time. I’m crying out of pain but more on anger.
I’m angry for myself, why I let my guards down? Why I don’t see this coming? why? I felt her slowly hugged me.
“I seriously don’t know what to say, I can’t say that everything is just fine when it’s not. But I know you’re a brave and a strong woman, Harp. I know you can surpass this.” I nodded and hugged her back.
“I don’t know the whole situation but I’m started to get mad at him for hurting you like this. But just thinking about the situation, I advise you to seek for his reason and explanation. Maybe there’s something wrong like misunderstanding here.” She told me. I nodded once again, that’s what I’m going to do.
“But whatever your decision is, I’ll accept and respect it. I’ll support you whatever you wanted to do,” she continued. I looked straight to her eyes, “Thank you, Am. This helped me a lot to calm myself and let go my emotions.” I thanked her. She smiled and tapped my shoulder.
“I’m glad that I help, let’s go back?”
“Yes, let’s go.” I decided. As we are walking back to the venue, we saw the guesses started to leave the palace.
“Wait, what’s happening? Is the event were done now?” Amanda murmured beside me. That’s my question too.
“Let’s go and ask.” I told to her. “Yeah, we better should.”
“Hello, excuse me. Why are you all leaving now?” Amanda asked a woman. She smiled when she recognized us.
“Lady Amanda, Queen.” She greeted us. I nodded, the same as Amanda to acknowledge her. “To answer your question. Our king just announced that the event was over, we don’t really know the reason though. But he looked scary because his mad.” She answered. Mad? What?
“Why is he mad?” Amanda asked again. Why he’s the one who is mad? Isn’t it supposed to be me?
“I’m not certainly sure but I just hear a rumor that he kicked the council out of this place.” Amanda and I looked into each other. He did that? But why?
“Oh, thank you. Please have a safe trip back to your homes. Have a great night,” Amanda dismissed the woman. She nodded and smiled as she took her leave.
“Let’s go and find out what happened,” Amanda told to me. When we reached the front door of the palace, we saw Zandea with her mate waiting there with worry in their eyes.
“Zandea, what happened?” Amanda asked her. She quickly looked in our direction, her eyes widened when she saw me.
“Harper, you’re still here!” Oh, they think that I leaved? She pulled me into a hug, “I’m glad that you’re still here. We’ve been searching for you for how many minutes now, your mate was worried about you. We are sorry for what you experienced today.” I pulled away from the hug and looked directly in her eyes.
“What do you mean?” I asked her.
“We know what the head council and Keriza did to you.” Then?
“They probably said something terrible,” she continued. They did.
“Are you alright?” she asked me when I’m just quiet.
“I’m not.” I answered honestly. She lower down her head, “You’re mad.” She stated. Am I? probably yes. I tapped her shoulder.
“You don’t have anything to be guilt and worried at, I’m not mad at you Zandea.” I told to her which causing her to look at me.
“Really?” I nodded.
“Yes, may I ask where is he now?” She was slightly caught off guard when I asked that. She doesn’t expect me to look for him, yeah, I’m mad at him but I will hear his explanation if… I can.
“I… I don’t know where is he right now. After he kicked out the council, he leaved.” She answered. Oh, so he really kicked them out.
“I see, I’ll go and look for him.” Before I can leave, Zandea hold my hand.
“It’s too late in evening, there’s something wrong might happen to you.” Right, they were still thinking that I’m just a human. “Just wait for him to come back.” She continues.
“Alright. I’ll go upstairs now. Have a rest now too.” I told them. They nodded their head. I know that they notice the way I treat them. It became cold and distant. They can’t blame me though. I saw and heard enough today.
When I reached the room of ours, ours… Do I still have the right to call this room as ours? It’s a pity in my side, I pity myself because I fall for the game he made. The game he started. And I… I lose that game.
I closed my eyes and let my body fall into the bed, I’m exhausted, physically, emotionally and mentally. How everything turned into like this again? How the happy moment became extremely sadness? Just a few hours ago, I’m still happy, all of us were happy.
I let out a sigh and opened my eyes. I get off the bed and stripped my clothes, I should take a bath to cool down myself. After a few hours inside the bathroom, I decided to get off the bathtub and wore my comfy pajama and loosed shirt. All of my clothes were smelled like him, I even smelled like him after marking me a few days ago.
Did I do a wrong choice of letting him to marked me? Oh, wrong or right, everything happened now, I can’t bring back the past and change what happened. I walked towards the terrace and watched the moon.
The sky is bright and clear, it’s so peaceful and quiet. I wish I can be like that now, but I can’t. Not like the sky, I feel dull and dark, I’m in unending trouble. I inhaled d*eeply and sigh, I have a single question playing in my mind now.
Will I able to face him after what happened today?
“Harper?” A rough yet pleading voice was heard behind me.