Sold as the Alpha King’s Breeder by Alice Knightsky
Chapter 49 – Ethan’s Past
It was dark by the time I awoke to find myself on the floor. The photos of my unborn child were still lying in my lap.
I didn’t remember falling asleep, but the exhaustion of everything I had been through made me realize that I definitely needed more rest.
I pulled myself up from the floor, my joints protesting the movement after being in that awkward position for hours.
After a stretch, I opened the bedroom door and moved to the living room, which was dim, lit only by a small fire. I realized Mary had come in to bring me dinner at some point without me hearing her.
“Rosalie…”
I jumped in surprise, a small scream escaping me as I turned to find Talon sitting on the sofa.
“Talon-” I said in shock. I looked around, expecting to see Ethan, but there was no sign of him. “What are you doing here?”
Slowly, he rose to his feet, switching on a small lamp that sat on the end table near him. “Mary came to me earlier because you hadn’t answered her, and she was worried. I decided to wait for you to wake up.”
“Oh, thank you… I’m ok. Don’t worry.”
This was the first time in a while that Talon and I had talked alone. We couldn’t get along like before anymore, although only I knew why.
It was then that I noticed the smell of alcohol. Frowning, I asked, “Have you been drinking?”
“Just a few sips. I still have to finish up my work later tonight.”
He looked at me with sadness in his eyes. After a moment of silence, he said, “I’m sorry.”
That was why he came. He was here apologize to me.
I just didn’t expect that the fearless Beta of the Drogomor pack needed the push from alcohol to make his apology.
I took a seat and sighed. “Why, Talon? Why didn’t you tell me?” Then I chuckled, “You don’t need to answer. Of course, you couldn’t. You’re his Beta.”
Talon sighed as well, and shook his head. A look of remorse filled his eyes. “I’d been trying to get him to change his mind, Rosalie.”
I said nothing, waiting patiently for him to finish.
He spoke faster than usual. “I’d been trying to get him to accept how he feels about you. I had hoped that, with time, he would see that, and you wouldn’t have had to know about the plan at all.”
“Talon, I’m nothing special to him, as you can see,” I said bitterly. “Besides, I’m already over it now.”
Talon looked defeated. “I’m sorry, Rosalie, but I am his Beta. I would be breaking my oath to Ethan if I were to tell you the truth.”
I watched as he walked towards me, then stopped just a few feet away.
“Talon, I appreciate that you tried to change Ethan’s mind. Really.”
After all, there wasn’t much Talon could do. As a Beta, he could not disregard his position or his Alpha. “What’s done is done. He’s made his choice, Talon.”
“I want to explain something to you, if you will give me a chance,” Talon said, suddenly. “I want to explain to you why Ethan is the way he is. Maybe, that way, you won’t give up on him- and you can help change his mind.”
Nodding my head, I picked up the tray of food Mary had brought me and moved towards the small coffee table setting it down.
“If you don’t mind me eating?” I asked. Even though I had no appetite at all, I needed to eat for the baby. Talon was surprised by my question. I gave him a smile. “The baby is hungry.”
No matter how bitter I felt inside, I needed to be strong for my child. I told myself that over and over again, and magically, it seemed to be working.
“Please, go ahead,” Talon replied quickly. “I only need ten minutes, I promise.”
He followed me and took a seat, his elbows resting on his knees as he watched me get comfortable. “Go ahead,” I replied as I picked up the small bowl of soup, which was still a bit warm.
“Ethan wasn’t always the way he is now,” Talon began. He took a breath.
“When he was a small boy… he saw his father being k*lled in front of him. It wasn’t until he was older that he realized his mother was behind the death of his father- and all so she could be with another man.”
I was shocked. “She betrayed their mate bond?”
“Yes, she did. Because another man promised her more power. Power he couldn’t give her.”
Talon’s voice was gentle, and it was so quiet in the room that I could hear the fire crackle.
“When Ethan got older, his step-father was beyond abusive. Not only did he abuse Ethan himself, but his people did, too- his beta, his servants… everyone. I’ve always found it a miracle that he survived.”
Talon stared at the fire and continued, “That man was a monster. He didn’t even treat his own children properly.” He took a shuddering breath. “One day, while Georgia was playing, his step father smacked her so hard it knocked her unconscious.”
Georgia was Ethan’s half-sister?
And, did that mean…?!
Talon gritted his teeth as he relived the memory. “That was the last straw for Ethan. He ended up challenging his step-father and k*lled him. Not long after, his mother died, too.”
I gasped.
“He vowed to always keep his pack safe, but at the same time, he vowed to the moon goddess to never take a mate.”
Things began to make sense. Ethan’s bloody reputation, his coldness toward women in general…
“So, he doesn’t want a mate because he thinks any woman would be like his mother?”
“Yes, essentially. He doesn’t want to give a woman enough power to be able to betray or destroy our pack… or him. So, since he knew he needed an heir…”
“…He bought a breeder. And with his plan, he can just get rid of me, and doesn’t ever need to worry about me coming back and using the child over him…”
I smiled bitterly. “It’s unacceptable that I could possibly harm him, but it’s totally fine for him to k*ll me?”
“Rosalie…”
Talon didn’t know how to answer. How could he? His explanation hadn’t made me feel any better.
“And he feels this way but is still going to marry Madalynn…?” I couldn’t help but feel stung by all this. “Please excuse me, but I don’t understand.”
“Rosalie, you do understand…” Talon said, staring at me, waiting for me to come to the conclusion myself. My brain was in a mess, but I took a few deep breaths so that I could sort through everything. Ethan agreed to marry Madalynn because my child would be the first-born heir. It wouldn’t matter if Madalynn became the Luna or not, her child would never be the next Alpha. She understood it, and Ethan of course did as well.
“Rosalie,” Talon could tell that I had already comprehended the situation, “Ethan wanted an heir solely to himself. Someone he could trust to hand over his pack to in the future, without any influence from the child’s mother, or even, the mother’s pack. He had to do it as soon as possible, because with the war approaching, he knew he would need to do whatever that’s necessary for the alliance, including… marrying someone he has no interest in.”
I couldn’t speak. I didn’t know what I should say.
He sighed. “I’ll be going now. I just wanted to try and explain everything. I wouldn’t dare to beg you for your forgiveness, and you have all the right to stay upset with me.”
Talon stood to his feet. As he left the room, he stopped, casting one more glance back toward me.
“If there is anything I can do for you to make your stay better, please let me know.” He hesitated for a moment, and I waited patiently for him to complete.
“Regardless of what you think, Ethan cares about you.” Talon was trying to convince me as well as himself, “Rosalie, please, don’t give up on him.”
Then he left the room. The door clicked behind him. I sat in the dark. Talon’s words replayed in my head over and over again.
“Don’t give up on him…” I repeated to myself.
Ethan had suffered from his childhood due to his mother, so he didn’t trust most women. I didn’t agree with him, but I could understand him a bit better now.
Had I not known about his plan for me, I would even think that, maybe, I meant something a little more to him.
I didn’t expect him to love me back, but I was hopeful that at least some of his tenderness was genuine feelings for me. How foolish.
Everything he did was for one and only one purpose — he needed an heir, and he would do whatever that might take to make a strong and healthy child, including making me somewhat happy.
Just like he would do whatever that was needed for strengthening the alliance. He was a man who clearly knew what he wanted and how to get it. My heart hardened.
Ethan might have been blinded by his painful past, but it didn’t mean I had to pay the price for his burden. Everyone had bad things happen to them; what made the difference was how we chose to handle them. Living by this philosophy was what got me through the longest of days growing up, back when all I received was abuse. My hands moved to touch my belly.
What about my child? Would this little life be raised without a mother? Would they only have a father who was nothing but distant and cold? Would they have a stepmother that would never love them, or worse, hate them because they stood in her way?
No… I would never do that to my child. I was not afraid to face death any more, but this little baby deserved way more than a life of coldness, politics and hatred.
It was more than clear what I had to do.
Yes- to get the ending I desired, I would have to work with my enemy.
Sighing, I leaned my head back and closed my eyes.
“Everything’s going to be okay,” I said to the small fetus growing in my stomach.
I would have to make sure of it on my own.