I will never be yours By Melan pamp
Chapter 111
Selena POV:
I feel him t*hrust h*ard from behind when his grip on my h*ips increases, I’m so close to being pushed over my p*eak, and in only a few more fast t*hru*sts he pushes me over, and my o*rgasm ripple through my body.
He chases his own r*elea*se and his c*ck twitch inside of me when I feel his h*ot c*um c*oats my walls, I pant out from the feeling and hear him g*roan when he t*hrust one last time inside before he stills.
He leans over me and k*isses my shoulder before he slowly starts to p*ull o*ut of me, laying down on my stomach when he lay beside me and placing his leg over me when his hand trail down my spine.
“How do you feel my love!” he says next to my ear and right now I want to take a nap. Hearing some knocking on the door before Emma starts to speak.
“Now you two have to come out of there and join the rest of the world! You two have been going at it for two whole days and I call it time out how!” I can’t help but chuckle at her.
I know we haven’t been outside the door for two days mostly because I can’t seem to get enough of him, my body wants him close all the time or it has something to do with what we have been going through.
Losing the bond and losing each other have taken a toll on us both!
There has been a maid outside his door to deliver food but for the rest of the time we have been enjoying each other and talked.
“No, we are not coming out!” I shout back to her and chuckle when Kian places a k*iss on my shoulder.
“You two have been going at it as two h*orny rabbits, every time I have been trying to interrupt, even I have heard you! Now, how many babies are you trying to make at once? You know I will love to be an aunt but can you take a break and participate in what’s going on outside?” I hear Emma say when I get a strange feeling from Kian before he tenses beside me.
Turning my head to look at him he is looking up at the ceiling before he shut me out from his feelings. Rising my head I look intensely at him when he keeps his eyes locked on the ceiling.
“What is wrong?” I ask him when he keeps his gaze on the same spot.
“Did you hear me?” Emma shouts louder from the door.
“Yepp heard you but now is not the time!” I shout back when I see Kian get up from the bed and head over to the bathroom. Hearing him turn on the tap to the shower I decide to follow after him, whatever made him this way I have to get to the bottom with.
Pushing the bathroom door open I walk inside and see him in the shower where he is leaning with his hands on the shower wall. I walk over and open the shower door before going inside.
“What’s wrong and don’t tell me it’s nothing!” I say and stand behind him. He doesn’t say anything and looking at him I can see his mussels play under his skin, he is upset about something!
Trying to figure out what he would be upset about, I can’t believe he would be angry because Emma came and disturbed us!
“Are you angry at Emma?” I ask and keep my eyes on him
“No!” is all he says and then I don’t understand when it dawns on me.
“You don’t want to have kids?” I say in shock when I feel the bond sizzle and know I hit right. He is quiet and all the sound in the room is from the water.
We stay like that for a long moment when I start to get angry.
“You don’t think it’s a good idea to tell a person you don’t want to have kids before spending two days not doing anything else than laying in bed? And why didn’t you use any protection if you don’t want kids!” I say in a raised tone, feeling upset by this. He doesn’t say anything and my frustration is about to get the best of me, deciding it’s best to get out of there I turn around and am about to leave him when he grabs my arm and swirls me around to face him.
“I want kids, it’s just I lost you once and I can’t risk losing you again!” he says with pain written all over his face.
“I lost you too but why do you think you would lose me because of a child?” I say and see him look for a long time at me without saying anything. Then I connect the dots why he is this way.
“You know I’m not her, right!” I say and look at him, don’t know what I should feel about all this. I never met her, only know she was weak and couldn’t survive a pregnancy. But I’m not her and I can’t believe after all this time he still sees me as weak.
Taking a step back from him, I’m disappointed by what he thinks of me. He looks at me and I guess he feels what I’m thinking because he grabs me by my waist and pushes me back against the cold tiles.
“You are not her, and I don’t compare you to her! I know how strong you are, but I lost you once and I can’t stand the thought of something happening to you because I want a child. I’ll rather have you and no children! You are my everything and I will constantly be worried something will go wrong with you and the child if you get pregnant!” he says and I can feel how worried he is through to bond.
I know it had to be tuff for him to lose them and I can’t believe he manages to survive it! Taking my hand to his cheek I hold it there and look at him.
“I’m not going anywhere, and a pregnancy won’t kill me!” I say with certainty and hold his eyes with mine. Seeing him take a d*eep breath before he lifts me and place my legs around his waist before pushing me back against the wall again.
“Then you can have as many as you want! We can start to try for one right now” he says and captures my l*ips with his.