He’s My Alpha by Cassandra M (Jake & Clair)
Chapter 37
Jake
7:55 am and here I was, sitting by the steps at the front of my packhouse. I should be with my warriors but the way my Beta Gavin delivered his story on how Clair rendered him speechless last night left me with no choice but to wait for her or my Beta might run away for his life.
Not that I was f*orc*ed. I hated my time with those females yesterday, and despite the fear of facing Clair, I must admit I was excited. I missed her.
I shook my head smiling at the thought of my little mate scaring the hell out of my Beta.
Beta Gavin could be playful when he wanted to, but he was more like me – a man with no emotions most of the time, and nothing scared him except my Alpha tone.
I wasn’t sure if he was enamored with Clair or she did scare him because he went ahead and revised my schedule today to accommodate Clair’s request, I mean Clair’s demand.
Lost in my thought, I was not aware that she arrived already with her pickup truck until I smelled her. I raised my head, still seating and my hands clasped together, arms leaning on my knees as I looked at the little goddess stepping out of her big truck.
“And to who do I owe that smile coming from your face?” She placed her hands on her hips and stood in front of me in all her glory, in a sexy camouflage shorts and a white wife-beater paired with sockless white sneakers.
She had her hair down making it flow flawlessly when she moves. F*uc*king temptress!
“Hi!” I let my eyes feasted on her, she was perfect in every sense and I couldn’t comprehend why the Goddess would give her to me if she knows I could never have her.
I stood up and I saw her roaming her eyes on me, her eyes flickered into black for a moment letting me know Rain wanted to come out. It was enough to send Echo into a frenzy, wanting to f*orc*e his way out.
It appeased me that my appearance got approval from my little mate and her wolf.
“Did you eat breakfast already? I haven’t yet. I can ask someone to cook for us and we can eat here first?” I asked, waiting for her response.
She c*oc*ked her head and motioned her thumb towards her pickup truck. “I got it covered. Hop in! We’re going somewhere for breakfast.” She turned around and slipped inside the driver’s seat without waiting for me.
I sat beside her in the passenger seat, my head tilted to her while she drives. I couldn’t help looking at her. She scrunched her nose from time to time whenever she would hit some rough road or holes in the pathway.
“You need to have someone look at the road, at least where cars are driving. It’s shitty already, maybe needed some fixing?” She told me calmly as she maneuvered her pickup to the forest line, leaving the driveway.
I nodded, a smile forming on my lips. She would probably make a good Luna. “I will do that, thank you. I have never really had time to notice that.”
She smiled before throwing a quick glance at me. ” Glad to help. It’s nothing compared to all the other tasks you have to focus on.” I nodded and looked at the path she was taking. I already have an idea where we were heading but I kept mum.
“And speaking of tasks, sorry for disrupting your schedule today. I mean, Beta said Friday. Come on it ‘s only Wednesday! I can’t wait that long!” She chuckled, probably remembering how he threatened my Beta yesterday.
I smiled and just shook my head, just enjoying having her beside me with her scent calming us.
“Do you think me scaring him worked?” She asked innocently.
“I think so.”
“I thought so too. I wasn’t really sure he’ll give in but he did!” She looked happy and proud of herself. “Or maybe he just liked you.” I teased her, smile still on my lips.
“Yeah, I know that! Everyone likes me, who wouldn’ t? Ooops, I forgot, my mate doesn’t like me!” She said nonchalantly as she slammed the brake and when the car came to a stop she hurriedly jumped out of the car.
“Clair…” I followed after her at the back of her pickup where she took out a picnic basket and a cloth. Ignoring me like what she said didn’t hit anything between us.
She brought us to the stream, our stream.
She walked gracefully balancing the basket in her hand and the cloth at the other while treading the way to the clearing around the stream.
She carefully spread out the cloth before placing the basket on it, preparing the food she took with her. I stood back and watched her, torn between wanting to spend time with her and running away from her.
She was too much. And she confused me. I felt like I don’t know what I want anymore.
“Come sit with me.” She was kneeling on the ground when she raised her head to look at me, and all I pictured was her kneeling to please me, and before I could stop it I found myself with a boner.
Her gaze moved from my face to the middle of my thighs before dropping it to the ground, making her cheeks burn red.
I cleared my throat and adjusted my pants discretely before sitting on the blanket.
“Thanks for preparing this. I’m sorry I didn’t have anything planned for us. I wasn’t expecting you would want to spend time with me.” I told her in a low voice.
She just nodded handing me a cheese and ham sandwich in one hand and a box of omelet and bacon in the other hand.
She giggled softly, and I swear to the goddess I wanted to place her in my lap and just hug her. Her giggles sounded heavenly. “I’m not sure which one you would want to eat, but you can have both.”
I smiled and grabbed the box of omelet and bacon firsts. “I’ll take this one first.”
“I knew it! I’m not sure what you eat for breakfast now but I remember you eat almost all the omelets and bacon mommy cooked when you eat with us before.” She talked while munching on the
sandwich in her hand. She looked so happy and my heart soared, knowing I was the reason behind her happiness right now.
“Your mom’s omelet was tasty, but this one…” I nodded and pointed the fork I was holding on the box of omelet in my hand.”… is the best one I tasted. I can eat this whole day.”
Or you. Yeah, I could eat you the whole day.
Her smile reached her eyes as she looked at me, her face beaming and red from blushing. “Stop being nice. It’s probably the only thing I can cook. I destroy everything else in the kitchen.”
“I’m not lying. It’s really good. Here, eat!” I offered a piece of the omelet from my fork. She looked at me dumbfounded before she opened her mouth, making her look more so sexy and seductive. It took a lot of restrain on my end not to attack her lips.
And I just found myself putting the fork back into my own mouth to suck it clean after it left her mouth. I was not aware if she noticed it, either way, she didn’t show any sign that she did. So I continued to suck on the fork like a teenager with a boner.
We sit in silence for a moment, just eating the food and fruits around us. Both were lost in our own thoughts. It was magical to be with her until she started asking questions.
“Who was with you last night?” I heard her ask in a soft voice.
I don’t know if she wanted an answer or not. I cleared my throat but didn’t say anything.
“Did you kiss her?”
“Clair…”
“Do you like her?” She added immediately. “Clair…”
“Stop that! I know you don’t want this mate bond between us but please can you at least cooperate and make it a little easier. I’m just asking and I want an answer.” She said calmly, her gaze fixed on the water in front of us.
“I felt it.” She said almost in a whisper. I was confused for a moment until she added more. “I felt it when you kissed her. It was painful, but nothing more painful than knowing you kissed someone and it’s not me.”
My jaw tightened at her revelation.
I knew when marked mates cheat intimately, the other half feels it but I had no idea it was possible when I haven’t marked her yet. My hands coiled into fists, pissed off at myself for hurting her.
Not that I kissed someone, it was Arianne who just jumped on me and kissed me. I tried to stop her gently. If I pushed her abruptly, she would have slammed her head on the wall behind her. But if I only knew Clair would feel it, hell I care if she got hurt. I wished I had pushed her immediately.
Echo gnarled at me and reminded me I was hurting our mate from the day we told her mates were not important to us.
I saw the first tear drop from her eyes. She swatted it with her palm, her gaze not faltering away from the stream.
“But I understand, you don’t want me. You don’t want this bond and you don’t want to do anything with me but please… give me just a little more time to accept this, the rejection. I just want to give a little fight before I moved on. I don’t want to end up with what-ifs all my life.”
“You’re better off without me.” My voice came out hoarsely. “You deserve someone who can love you without boundaries, without inhibitions, someone who’s not afraid to give their all to you. I can’t do that. I’m not made for that.”
She snapped her head in my direction, her eyes glaring at me. “No, you listen! And listen hard! I want you! I want you even before this mate bond happened! So I don’t know if this bond is a curse or a blessing! But I don’t care! I’m going to fight for my place in your life and you can’t get rid of me easily!”
“Stop this Claire! Nothing will change, I still can’t have you!”
“Look at me! Look at me! What’s wrong with me? Am I ugly? Do you want me to color my hair blonde or red? Tell me? Or am I not good in bed? Do you think I can’t please you? We haven’t tried yet! I’ll prove to you I can please…” She moved fast and kneeled in front of me, she grabbed the waistband of my shorts and tried to unclasp the button before I swatted her hands off my shorts.
“What the f*uc*k, Clair! Stop!” I snarled at her as I crouched just on a soft defensive stance, to stop her from coming near me.
“F*uc*k you, Jake! F*uc*k you! If you really don’t want me then go ahead and reject me now so I can run after someone else! You’re not the only Alpha around!”
“You will not do such f*uc*king thing.” My jaw tightened, claws threatening to come out. No one can touch what’s mine!
“Try me, Jake, you may not want me but I’ll make sure someone else will see my worth!”