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Eventually, the doctor could only give me some medicine and leave.
In the evening, I cleaned myself and asked Auntie Sidney to bring me some
cosmetics.
She brought the entire vanity with a robot’s help. She said, “These robots are
really useful. They can carry heavy loads without any complaints. It’s just that
they look bulky, unlike the ones you designed.”
After the vanity was put into its place, a servant came in and said, “Auntie
Sidney, there are several guests at the door. They say they’re from the
renovation company.”
Auntie Sidney nodded and said to me, “Mr. Mendez wants to change the
layout of the second floor and the stairs. They’re here to draft a floor plan.”
She left the room with the robot following behind her like a puppy.
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I stared at the door for a while before sitting down before the vanity. If I put on
makeup, maybe Liam would not think I was trying to take my own life.
I realized that putting on makeup required skills I did not have.
The more I messed with it, the worse it became. My face was dirty like a
cheap painting.
I could only wash my face in the bathroom. When I stepped out, I saw Liam.
He was standing next to the bed. When I saw him, he had thrown his tie on
the bed and was undoing the buttons of his shirt.
The guest room was very cramped. Only the bed stood between us.
I discreetly shifted my hand to my back and twisted the doorknob.
As soon as I moved, he said, “Come here.”
I had already returned to the bathroom. I leaned on the door and locked it.
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Silence…
A long time later, a knock on the door was heard.
I held my breath and said nothing.
The knocks became louder. Through the thin door, I could hear Liam’s voice
clearly. “Come out here.”
I did not speak.
I began to regret hiding on impulse earlier. He must be very angry now.
What would he do to me?
Suddenly, I heard someone fiddle with the doorknob. In a few seconds, the
lock sprang open.
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I tried to lock it again, but I was too late. A strong force pushed the door open.
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I was leaning on the door, so I was pushed away. When I regained my footing,
Liam was already inside.
He walked straight toward me while I retreated backward. Of course, there
was nowhere to run. In a few steps, my back was already against the wall.
Liam came close to me and placed his hands on both sides.
He lowered his head and completely surrounded me.
“Why are you running now?” he said coldly. “Isn’t it too late to run?”
I clenched my fists tightly so they did not tremble too much.
“Why didn’t you let the doctor inspect you? Didn’t you say it was your first
time?” he asked.
“The doctor said you seemed afraid. Are you feeling guilty?” he asked!.
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Every time I answered his questions, I seemed to invite unimaginable horrors
upon myself.
I did not know how to answer him now.
“Speak!” He abruptly clenched my cheek. “Are you mute?”
I did not know what to say.
Liam let go of me but immediately grabbed my collar.
The sudden coldness on my chest indicated that my shirt had been torn. I
covered my chest and said, “I… I was afraid… I was afraid of the tool she used.
I’m afraid of pain…” I might as well tell him the truth.
My head was lowered, so I did not see his expression.
I could tell that he became angrier from the sounds of his breathing.
“You’re afraid of pain?” Liam scoffed as though I told him a joke. “So it wasn’t
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painful when you slept around with other men then?”
I stared him in the eye.
“I’m asking you a question,” he said coldly. “Was it painful when you slept
around with other men, or was the pleasure more than the pain?”
I continued to stare at him, at a loss for words.
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“Speak!” He said and gritted his teeth. “Wasn’t it painful when the surgeon
fixed it? Why is it painful when you have to prove it? Who are you trying to lie
to?”
As he spoke, he pried my hands away.
I tried to struggle to no avail.
When I heard the sounds of cloth tearing, I suddenly broke down, and I began
to wail loudly.
I punched and bit him like a wild animal. There was no dignity left to be had.
If I had any dignity in me, I would not have fallen in love with him in the first
place.
If I had not fallen in love with him, I would not have known such despicable
characters existed in this world.
At this moment, I wished I was as frivolous as he thought I was.
It was better than falling in love with a devil.
I wailed until my tears were dry and my throat was so hoarse I could not
make another sound.
I was too weak to stand, so I fell sitting on the floor. My torn clothes were like
deep gashes on my body.
I could vaguely see his legs in front of me. He stood in front of me for some
time before walking away.
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The door closed, leaving me alone in the cramped bathroom.
There was no sound. It felt like being in the mortuary.
I hugged myself, but I still felt cold. I felt like a corpse.
Mrs. Crawford cooked dinner that night. After she set the table, she said to
Liam, “Vivi told me these are your favorite dishes. You’ve never tasted my
cooking, so please let me know if I have to change anything.”
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“You’re too kind, Mrs. Crawford,” Liam said with a smile. “You don’t have to
mind what I like. I hired you because I know Vivi likes your cooking, and I wish
she could eat more. She’s been losing a lot of weight recently, and I thought
it’s not the time to have a child with her yet.”
I clenched my spoon tightly.
A child? I can no longer bear a child.
That was one of the side effects of the medicine I took. Moreover, I did not
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have enough time left.
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“I see. Leave it to me then,” Mrs. Crawford looked at me lovingly, then
continued speaking to Liam, “Vivi always had a good appetite since young,
and she’s always been healthy. She’s probably depressed after the accident.
If you can take good care of her, I’m sure she’ll be okay in no time.”
Liam nodded. “Thank you for your concern, Mrs. Crawford.”
After Mrs. Crawford left, the dining hall was silent once more, save for the
occasional clinking of cutlery.
I tasted some of the dishes I used to love, but I could not taste anything.
I had come to the dining table on my own accord. After I calmed down in the
bathroom, I was afraid he might torment me again.
Even though I did not have much time left, I was hoping to see my father
once more before I die.
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Suddenly, Liam took the meatballs away from me and substituted a plate of
steamed fish in its place.
