The Alpha King’s Mistake by BlackFlame
Chapter 89 His Explanation
Harper Alizah Grace’s POV
“Harper?” A gentle yet pleading voice was heard behind me. I froze, he’s here. Closing my eyes tightly as I turned around to face him. “Love?” he called me once again. I bit my lip and forced myself to look at him. There he was, he looked more devastated than I. His eyes were red, hair was messy, he seems so lost like I do.
He’s impossible, he’s the one who betrayed me but why he looked like this as if he was the one who is hurt now? I can’t stare at him for so long so I averted my gaze. Damn, this is a lot h*arder than I expected.
‘Calm down, harper, calm down. You can do this, ask him, ask him to know the truth.’ I told to myself. Taking a d*eep breath to get some courage, I’ve been decided. I looked coldly at him like the way I do before.
“Do you have anything to say?” I asked him expressionlessly. My eyes didn’t miss how he panicked as I asked that. That’s it, he’s really guilty meaning to say, what I have learned tonight is true. Nodding my head, I turned my back on him. His expression tells the truth.
From my back, I felt him approached me.
“Let me explain, love. Please,” he pleaded. I just… I just wanted to laugh at this moment, sure, I’ll let him explain.
“Then tell me, enlighten me, explain it all to me.” I challenged him. In my peripheral vision, I saw him shut his mouth closed, can find any good words to say? Just like what I thought, he can’t even tell the whole truth to me.
But I think also, we are just the same. I can’t tell to him who really I am too. I guess, we just forgave each other but don’t really trust each other. We just keep on keeping secrets. But isn’t this too much, I gave him a second chance but… but he once ruined it again.
I have fault on this one too, I let him, I let him fool me. I let my guards down, melt the tall wall surrounding my heart. At first, I know there’s something wrong about him. And in the first place, it is very odd that a person can changed in just a one snap.
“You already knew it, don’t you?” he whispered. Will I act this way if I don’t know? If they don’t tell me about that matter, I’m maybe still acting like a fool now. How pathetic.
“What do you think?” I asked as I looked directly in his eyes. He looked down and sigh in defeat.
“I’m sorry.” I’m sorry? Is that what he will just to say? Sorry? I laughed lifelessly, “Your sorry won’t explain anything, why don’t you start explaining? Tell me, tell me your reason!” I couldn’t help but to yelled at him. This is stressing the hell out of me.
“I’m sorry,” he repeated. I cover my face frustratedly using my palm, why he keeps on saying sorry? I don’t want his sorry, all I want is his explanation. He got a lot of things needed to reason out. Why is he wasting our time here?
“I’m sorry, I’m sorry love.” I closed my fist tightly.
“Don’t, don’t call me that. And can you please stop saying sorry when you really don’t mean it!” He looked up. I can see worry and panic in his eyes, yes, he better should. He tried to reach out for my hand but I took a step back.
“No, I meant it. I’m really sorry, I just… I just don’t know how to explain everything to you.” He admitted. I gritted my teeth and calm down myself even more. Damn, why don’t he start explaining on how he pretended just to lure me?
“If you can’t tell, then I’ll ask!” He glanced at me. Hope filled his eyes. Sadly, I’ll crash that hope into million pieces. If he thinks that I’ll let go of this easily, then he is wrong.
“Ask me, ask me anything. I’ll answer it.” How pathetic he is right now, that same as I. We ae both pathetic.
“I’ll just ask you three questions, and I wanted an honest answer.” I said seriously. I saw him nodded, “Who is Keriza Radwell to you?” I watched him carefully, waiting for his answer.
“She… she’s,” he lowered down his gaze. She’s what? Is that h*ard to answer? I just asked who is she in his life. “She’s my ex-girlfriend. My first love.” He admitted. Alright, just like what I thought. But damn, why it hurts like it was ripping me apart?
The memories of them k*issing flashed back in my mind. I’m speechless, he won’t k*iss her if he’s not still over with her right? I couldn’t stop my tears from falling from my eyes, it really hurts.
“But believe me, we are done. A long time ago,” he continued and hold my hand to reassured me. I look at him, when he saw the tears in my eyes, he panicked even more. This is the first time I cried in front of him.
“Please, don’t cry. It’s breaking me to see you like this,” I pulled away my hand from his grip. Hurt him to see me like this?
“You don’t believe aren’t you? I told you, she’s just nothing to me now. You are my everything, my mate, my love, my queen. So please, believe me.” He begged. I stared at him. My hands were trembling now.
“Then why did you k*iss her?” I asked breathlessly. He was telling me that I’m his everything but he k*issed her? Is he really just fooling me? Is he happy now that he really managed to manipulate me?
Shock was visible in his eyes. He doesn’t expect me to know that? “Explain it to me, why did you k*iss her?” I repeated whispered likely.
“I… I did not k*iss her.” He said which causing me to look at him. So, is telling me that I’m just hallucinating that time? That my eyes lied on me?
“Then how will you explain what I saw?” I asked once again. This time he looked at me, “You saw it? Let me ask you? How far have you seen?” he questioned me.
“Far enough to see that you lied to me,” I answered while pointing his heart. He captured my hand and placed it over his chest where I can feel his heart beating.
“No, you don’t see everything. I did not k*iss her, she’s the one who k*issed me. You might be thinking that I cheated on you with her but no. I pushed her away, maybe in that moment, you already left.” He explained. How will I believe him? I did not see what he said.
“So please, baby. Believe me, I did not lie on you. I really love you,” he pleaded. Even if I wanted to believe him, I just can’t. Let’s just say he really don’t k*iss her, but how will he explain what Mr. Radwell tell to me?
“You don’t love me. You’re just pretending to keep your throne.” He slowly lowered down his head. Did I hit it right? I laughed dryly.
“I just wanted a direct answer from you. Is that your real intention why you suddenly became kind to me or not?” I asked him seriously.
“Yes but—” I cut him off.
“No more buts, it’s loud and clear that you just pretended. Great, that’s what I wanted to hear for now. I heard enough today. I don’t want to hear more about this bullshit.” I said and took a d*eep breath to calm down. If I won’t calm down, I might unleased my power and let him know who I am.
I stared at him. He can’t even look at me in the eyes now. Is he that guilty? I wiped the tears from my eyes and made a decision. He admitted that he just fooled me, pretended that he loved me.
“I don’t know how to make it up to you, but can you please give me—” I cut him off again.
“Don’t bother to say any words, it won’t change the fact that you still fool me.” He fell silent, after a few seconds he looked at my eyes and slowly kneel down in front of me. What is he doing?
“I know that you’re mad at me now, but please don’t leave me. Give me another chance to make it up to you,” he begged. I gritted my teeth and closed my hands tightly. What should I do? What should I do?
“I will leave,” I said causing to panic. “No, I won’t let you. You’ll stay here!” I shook my head.
“If you really love me, let me go.” He once again lower down his gaze. “Let me go now if you wanted me to give you another chance.” He quickly looked at me.
“What do you mean? How can I make it up to you when you will leave?”
“I’ll leave, and if I’ll come back, meaning to say, I’m giving you another chance.” I answered seriously. That’s the only thing I can offer now.
“I just got you back, I don’t expect to lose you again this quick.” He whispered. I don’t expect this either.
“Alright,” he breathed in, “I’ll let you go even it hurts me.” He decided. He slowly stands up and walked closer to me.
“But before you leave, can you let me k*iss you?” I shook my head but I pulled him closer to me. I gave him a hug, “Thank you.” I whispered before pulling away. I started to walk away, leaving him behind.
This is the better, for the both of us. I didn’t dare to look back. My only goal now is to leave this place. When I reached the ground floor, I saw Lance with Hiro in the door way. They probably know what happened.
“Are you sure about this, Harper?” Lance asked me with a hint of sadness in his voice. I nodded my head, “Yes, I need some fresh air and space to think.” They nodded in understanding.
“We guess, we can stop you but can you let us to drive you safely to your wanted destination?” Hiro asked me. Alright, they were still thinking that I’m just a human but no, I won’t let anyone of them to know where I will go. Shaking my head, I declined their offer.
“I can manage, but I have one favor to ask.” They listened carefully.
“We are listening.”
“Say goodbye to Amanda and Zandea for me,” I paused to hear their response.
“Sure, your words will be heard.” Lance answered. Good to know.
“They will be shock and will miss you,” Hiro said sadly too. I know, I know. But this is my decision, and I know they will respect it.
“I will miss you all too, but I need to leave.” I answered, sadness can be heard in my voice.
“We understand.” I’m glad.
“I have another favor to tell,” I stated. They nodded, “Can I borrow a car?” I asked.
“Sure, use mine.” Lance told to me and hand me the key of his car. I shook my head, “Not yours, just the simplest one please.” I demanded.
“Alright, I’ll get you one.” Hiro said. I nodded, “Thanks.”
“Will you come back, Harper?” Lance asked me again while we are waiting for Hiro. I took a d*eep breath and shrugged my shoulder.
“I seriously don’t know, maybe yes? Maybe no?” I answered honestly. He let out a sigh too, “I don’t know what really happened, but I hope you can still forgive him. He’s genuinely happy when you’re around, he’s that the grumpy king I know before,” he paused and laughed softly, maybe he remember how grump he is.
“But I know I’m not in the place to say that. Anyway, if this is what really you wanted, I have nothing to do with it. And I know too, we can’t stop you. Have a safe trip now then,” he continued. I look at him, “Thank you for understanding, Lance.” He just smiled and nodded. That’s when exactly the car arrived.
“I’ve already check everything about the car. It’s safe and working properly, and have a lot of food and drinks on the trunk too. Please have a safe trip, Harper.” Hiro informed me as he handed me the key.
“Thank you, I’ll get going now.” They nodded. I hop in the driver’s seat and started to drove away the car from the place I learnt to love.
Till my heart can forgive again, I murmured.